So true

"I have spent many hours seething with anger,it has passed now. Once again I have been played by a twisted mind that feels the need to tell horrid lies to get attention. I shall continue to wear My heart in the open because I do not want to miss someone truly in need of help. I refuse to feel like I have sucker writen on My forehead." ~ Studebaker Hawke

Thank you, dear for this! Stand strong my friend, as I have as well, and I will as well.

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I have been called out

And.. I am brave enough to say that .. they are right. I hate admitting I still have issues.  I guess I didn't realize I still did, but I do.

"I see many of your words and actions still being in response to (their) (ok i'll just say it) abuse.  You frequently proclaim that you are free of the negative influence. While that is technically true, your need to point that fact out means your healing is incomplete. That is understandable; the psychic wounds of a toxic relationship are deep and long-lasting (having been through it myself I sympathize). When you can go about your life without a care about what (they) think, and don't feel the need to point out you don't care, you will be truly healed. And I hope you know I say this somewhat harshly because I care about you and your happiness. Although it is easy for me to say "move on" I know it really isn't that easy."

So, back to the drawing board I guess. I will say that I don't understand why people feel the need to hurt others. I do not understand the reasoning behind having to have everyone adore and look up to them, while they stand  on top of people to get there.

Lots of meditation tonight.  LOTS.  Universe, please give me the strength to just "get over it".

A New Moo