I meditate more now than I ever have in my
life. It helps to slow my body down (not always my mind), it helps to regulate
my demeanor, sparks ideas for creation, but it also sheds light on situations
that might be bothering me, even if I don’t think that it is. Let me explain.
Most recently, I was very disappointed in
some people. That of course is my problem, because one was only being who they
are, using the only mental capacity they’ve been given, allowing limitations to
hinder their very actions towards others. They displayed classic signs of
jealousy and struck like a venomous snake at a friend of mine.
I of course took it very personally.
While I snarked and pretended it didn’t
matter to me or for that fact bother me, (for who had said it was merely a
social reject) deep down it really did, because this was a person that was
supposed to be a friend to the very person that she attacked and ridiculed in
public. Friends don’t do that to other friends (even though I’ve experienced
the very same thing with “friends”).
The more I thought about it though, the more
I was disappointed in a mutual friend of the two said friends mentioned above. It is a very selfish act of conspiring because
of jealous feelings, instead of being an adult and feeling happy for someone
(like they’ve received many times from both parties) they felt betrayed and inferior.
So while I was taking all of this personally
(kind of without even really realizing it), obviously my spirit guides were
creating this magnificent 8mm movie for me to observe while in meditation. They
were able to lay it out so that I could see everything that was designated for
my information but also that was intended for the attacked friend above.
Both of us are in a place in our lives where
the small, irritable things (and people) no longer matter. Bring into your
circle the things that you love and the things that matter the most to you. We
knew there would be jealous, and we honestly thought it wouldn’t affect us but
it did, both of us, even though we didn’t express it to each other past the ignition
shock.
During my meditations, which ended up being
extremely deep and probably one of the most serene feeling meditations I have
ever experienced, I wasn’t angry any longer. I was shown things about myself
and my friend that make these childish actions by others insignificant.
As for direct information about myself, I was show that I need to do more hands on Healing. I was surprised on how much it nurtured my own spirit and inner-being.
I wouldn’t change these experiences for anything.
